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Cemetery surprises

13 Jun

I went to the cemetery today. I haven’t been to Sammy’s grave since Easter because going there makes me feel too sad. Maybe it’s because Sammy was buried in January, and each time I’ve gone over the winter months, it has been cold, rainy, or just plain dreary. We haven’t decided on a headstone yet, so each time I go, I’m reminded that we still need to do that.

My visit to the cemetery was a little better today. Delicate blades of grass are starting to grow now on Sammy’s grave, and eventually there will be a thick carpet of grass. While I was there, I saw a deer grazing near the wooded edge of the cemetery. She let me watch her for about 15 minutes until she slipped back into the woods. I’ve been stressed and tired this week, so spending that time just watching the deer is a gift that I treasure.

Mother’s Day

13 May

In case you were wondering, I had a very lovely Mother’s Day. Steve gave me a Mother and Child pendant with Sammy’s birthstone. We drove to Mishawaka, Indiana on Sunday for a day trip. Steve was a good sport for driving in the rain for over 6 hours round trip to take me to a scrapbook store! He waited very patiently and allowed me to spend as much time (and money) as I wanted. I didn’t go overboard, but I did pick up a few cute items for Sammy’s preschool scrapbook that I’ve been working on.

Spa Day

30 Apr

I think Sammy would have been proud of me. Yesterday, I spent 6 hours having a spa day! Besides listening to Kenny Chesney’s music, Sammy’s favorite thing was to have “spa day” at home. Spa day for Sammy included hair washing with scalp massage, bath, body massage with lavender-scented baby lotion, a little splash of baby cologne, and Twinkie-flavored lip balm after having his teeth brushed. Sammy loved to be pampered, and he sure did smell great afterward!

I followed his example yesterday with a day spent at the Reeda Todd Salon being pampered with a mani/pedi, hair color and new hair style, eyebrow shaping, and makeup application! Over the past five years, I’ve let myself go, and I’ve been long overdue for some time devoted just for me. In the coming weeks, I’ll be looking at an eye exam, new glasses, dental work, and teeth whitening! The inside is still the same, but the outside is catching up!

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