I Lost My Child Today

6 Jan

I lost my child today.
People came to weep and cry,
As I just sat and stared, dry eyed.
They struggled to find words to say,
To try and make the pain go away,
I walked the floor in disbelief,
I lost my child today.

I lost my child last month.
Most of the people went away,
Some still call and some still stay.
I wait to wake up from this dream.
This can’t be real. I want to scream.
Yet everything is locked inside,
God, help me, I want to die.
I lost my child last month.

I lost my child last year.
Now people who had come, have gone.
I sit and struggle all day long.
To bear the pain so deep inside.
And now my friends just question, “Why?
Why does this mother not move on?
Just sits and sings the same old song.
Good heavens, it has been so long.”
I lost my child last year.

Time has not moved on for me.
The numbness it has disappeared.
My eyes have now cried many tears.
I see the look upon your face,
“She must move on and leave this place.”
Yet I am trapped right here in time,
The songs the same, as is the rhyme,
I lost my child……Today.

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2 Responses to “I Lost My Child Today”

  1. Barb Brown January 6, 2012 at 11:15 am #

    Thinking of you Leslie and Steve as Sam’s anniversary is here. I remember going through his passing with you and feeling your pain. Sammy was such a sweet little boy that I can’t help but smile whenever I think of him or see his sweet picture. Barb

  2. Sharon Hooks February 21, 2012 at 11:50 am #

    I saw your beautiful little Sammy’s website today. The pain you feel must be unbearable, my heart actually aches for you. I am lifting you up in prayer and asking God to comfort you and strengthen you.Sammy’s pictures were amazing and his smile had to light up the world around him. When I think of SammyYammy, I see him chasing ponies and buttrerflies in heaven!! I’m just another life your precious little boy touched!!

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